You’re in the early autumn and I am in the final stages of spring, thats why people could say we weren’t supposed to be together. But one thing we have in common: the urge to start something new. Different weather, different temperatures. Different conditions, different feelings. Different minds.


My federate

This place is toxic
I can’t tell what to do about it
It’s crawling inside my head
under my skin
poisons me
makes me vulnerable 
everything you say
I am building a wall
right in front of you
you won’t be able to reach for my soul, change me
Change me! Just go for it. Congratulations, you already succeeded 
You will see it only puts another brick on my wall

One time it’ll be a fortress and I won’t give you the key
That’s why I fell for him                  
He helps me forget about the stones
This cold, aching feeling inside me
He warms my soul
my heart, my mind
He makes me feel like theres nothing to be ashamed of
neither my broken mind, nor my injured pride
He heals it, takes care of it, accepts it
I gave him the key a long time ago

because he’s no false friend.            no enemy 
he’s my federate

Twisted Souls

We are forced to live together            I know you can’t help it                   But sometimes I can’t fucking stand you

The way you talk                              The way you raise your eyebrow Only the way you look at me           Or don’t look at me                              It makes me furious

I know deep in your soul you’re a good man                                       But everything I see are arrogant eyes                                                       I’d like them                                          If they weren’t so cold

I wish you smiled at me more often Maybe it’d be easier for me to smile at you                                            Expect nicer things to come out of your mouth                                     Than blaming and critics                     

I know sometimes you try              But then I can’t see it                      And treat you as usual               Regret it when I lie in bed          Alone with my thoughts

Sometimes I dream of you as a kind, loving human                                         I know it’s the deep wish of my soul To get along with you                Maybe even trust you             Without having the fear of being judged by you

We have our moments                 They make me see you                       In a different way                         Make me be comfortable with you But the routines of the day     Destroy everything

Remind me of your every day face Your every day attitude                      It makes me sick.                              The way you don’t understand me Are you not able to or do you just refuse to?

I cant tell.

I know you will never be an empathetic person and             Maybe people like you                   And people like me                      Aren’t meant to work together      But I know we will get by somehow

And after all                                       We need to work out a happy ending. Together.                               Or it will break down at the end Burying us into regrets and haunting thoughts 


You try to protect me
But with showing me how disgusting this world is, over and over again
You just make me vulnerable and anxious
Being afraid of dark corners
Everyone has a dark side          could be a potential murderer
We were born pure
But life forms us into bitter faces, memories, thoughts

I want to set myself free

Im going to set myself free

I know you want me to

I know you dont want me to

Head of Giuliano de’ Medici


Last year I was spending my holidays in a small village and in the house we rented I found an old book from the 60s about Michelangelos work and I literally studied it. One page particularly interested me the most, it was a picture of Michelangelos sculpture of Giuliano de’ Mecidi. So then I decided to draw it and I still like it a lot even though it doesnt really represent the orginial very well but it always reminds me of the nice holidays I spent there. I might redraw it one time.